Impossible spells out I'm possible

Its so sad that I felt like we were invincible together. When you were by  my side i thought i had it all and now i have nothing at all. I feel pathetic and foolish. I feel hurt and ashamed. I dont understand what i did wrong none the less how i was suppose to react to certain situations. Was it my fault? Was I suppose to chase you after all those times you kept telling me you didnt want me? There wer so many different scenarios running through my head. You were suppose to chase me like you did when we first fell in love. You were suppose to laugh at our mistakes. You were suppose to talk it out with me. all of my endings were unrealistic and fairy tale-like. You told me once you had a fairy tale perspective on love. I believed you and I thought you were my prince charming even though everyone else told me otherwise. I broke so many rules and disregarded everyone because my gut told me you were special, told me we were special. But now youre gone. and reality is settling in. but my feelings was wrong and misguided me. I guess its time for them to pay the price. Its just so shameful that one of the greatest chapters of my life is over.

the things i want, the person i want to be…im not. I’m everything I didnt want to be. My attitude, my emotions, my everything is wrong. Im not on the right path and I sincerely desire all the things that will hurt me. Im so messed up and i cant even help myself.